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Why Me? — The Bird’s Nest by Robin Carter

Have you ever wondered why Jesus chose Judas to be one of his disciples? Just take a moment to think deeply about the question. This is probably a question that has been asked throughout centuries. Jesus knew that Judas would betray Him but still He chose him to be one of the disciples. While we cannot be absolutely certain why Judas betrayed Jesus, some things are certain.

First, although Judas was chosen to be one of the twelve disciples, all scriptural evidence points to the fact that he never believed Jesus to be God. He even may not have been convinced that Jesus was the Messiah (as Judas understood it). Unlike the other disciples that called Jesus “Lord”, Judas never used the title for Him and instead called Him “Rabbi,” which simply acknowledged Jesus as nothing more than a teacher. While other disciples at times made professions of faith and loyalty (John 6:68; 11;16), Judas never did so and appears to have remained silent. This lack of faith in Jesus is the foundation for all other considerations involving Judas. The same holds true for us. If we fail to recognize Jesus as God incarnate, and therefore the only One who can provide forgiveness for our sins and the eternal salvation that comes with it—we will be subject to numerous other problems that stem from a wrong view of God.

Secondly, Judas not only lacked faith in Christ, but he also had little or no personal relationship with Him. When the synoptic gospels listed the Twelve, they are always listed in the same general order with slight variations (Matthew 10:2-4; Mark 3:16-19; Luke 6:14-16). The general order is believed to indicate the relative closeness of their personal relationship with Jesus. Despite the variations, Peter and the brothers James and John are always listed first, which is consistent with their relationships with Jesus. Judas is always listed last, which may indicate his relative lack of a personal relationship with Christ.

Additionally, the only documented dialogue between Jesus and Judas involved Judas being rebuked by Jesus after his greed-motivated remark to Mary (John 12:1-8), and the betrayal itself (Luke 22:48). These types of things are reasons why we need to build a rapport with the Lord, get to know Him for ourselves, for we are no different people than the ones in the Bible days. We must not break bread before Jesus and then lift up our heels against Him later. Often when people become painfully aware of their sin and are overcome with guilt, they cry out to Jesus for mercy. In joyous wonder they experience that Jesus loves them, and because He died for them, they are forgiven all their sins if repented. He knew that we would be how we are today, but He made us and gave us free will and freedom of speech and beliefs because He’s just that kind of God! So while we’re asking why did Jesus choose Judas, we should also ask ourselves, why me?

Why did Jesus die for me when He already knew that I would disappoint Him. I am undeserving, wretched and hopeless without Him, yet He opened His arms and heart to me. At times I can almost hear Him whispering, “I love you Robin; even more than you loved your sins.” It’s true! I cherished my sin, I protected it and justified it. I denied its wrongdoing, yet God loved me still enough to forgive me and set me free. How wonderful is your grace Jesus! It is greater than all my sins. He has taken away all my burdens and set my spirit free.

God loves us not because of who we are, but who He is (Mark 14:10-21). God demonstrated His own love towards us, in that while we are yet sinners, Christ died for us (Romans 5:8). Why me Lord? Jesus answered, “Why not you?